Attitude

I have come to place in photographer where I find that I have a job that I honestly am not in the least bit thrilled to do. None the less, I took the job, prayed over it and for the desire to do it. I have already done the photo shoot portion of the job, but have yet to edit the photos. The photo shoot went fine, and I am still extremely thankful my husband came along with me. But, now I am at the editing process, and I really do not want to stare at this subject’s face for hours editing the photos.

Yesterday, I began to tell my mentor about this and found myself thinking “why am I acting so self-righteously?” It is true, I do not want to edit these photos because I have looked down on this person and do not care for their way of life. I feel sad for this person but that is the extent of my “positive” emotions towards them. I then realized I am no better. I am a sinner, unclean, unworthy of salvation, redemption with a Holy and Righteous God. Why then am I looking at this person as if I am somehow better than them? Why, because I am too a sinner, in desperate need of a savior.

Father forgive my self-righteousness, and let me not continue to dwell in my sin.

I can see why now the Lord called me to photography. Because of all jobs, it is the most challenging and pushing of my sin to be revealed and worked through by His amazing Holy Spirit.

Today I must edit these photos, and I pray that I would not edit them for the sake of man but for making beauty out of what the Lord has given me. Sometimes you are given a pile of rubbish and you must make it into a reflection of the Beauty and Glory of our Lord. This is the challenge of being a photographer, and I cannot wait to see the beauty the Lord makes of it.